Mind your state! - 11-30-2022
Episode Summary:
The document delves into the intricacies of the human mind, consciousness, and their interplay. The author discusses the effects of anesthesia on memory and how consciousness remains stable despite the mind's fluctuations. The narrative emphasizes that consciousness acts through the body and mind, and its state can change based on the body and mind's conditions. The author also touches upon the influence of hormones on motivation and desire. The text critiques certain views on artificial intelligence, emphasizing that AI lacks inherent motivation. The author argues against the notion that AI can act without specific instructions. The document also touches upon personal experiences, interactions, and debates about the state of mind, consciousness, and external influences like drugs.
Key Takeaways:
- Consciousness remains stable despite the mind's fluctuations.
- Anesthesia can have profound effects on memory.
- Hormones play a significant role in motivation and desire.
- Artificial intelligence lacks inherent motivation and acts based on instructions.
- The state of the mind can be influenced by various external factors, including drugs and environmental conditions.
- Personal experiences and interactions shape our understanding of consciousness and its influences.
Mind your state! - 11-30-2022
Hello humans. Hello humans. Wednesday, November 30 or 08:59 a.m. Almost 09:00 beaten feet to get into town to do shopping and pick up supplies and to go and connect with a couple of people real quick and then get back and do more work. It's winter, so there's all kinds of crap happening here.
We had the septic tank backed up this morning. I had to deal with that. There was a plug in the line leaving late, all of this kind of thing. And it’s a multiple hour journey. Going to town just to go do shopping and getting back.
I mean, that consumes the better part of it’s. Like probably two and a quarter hours round trip just to go into town, pick up one item, turn around and come back because you got to get fuel and that sort of thing. Anyway though, so wanted to discuss the nature of mind. Okay, so this is the really tricky shit. When you get into woo and you get into deep woo, ultimately it comes down to or delves or if you dive deep enough, you will come to the point where consciousness influences everything and then you’ve got to start thinking about consciousness and the influences on it.
So here’s the thing. Consciousness is inviolate, okay?
It can’t be merged, can’t be destroyed.
So it’s indestructible, it’s perpetual, it’s pervasive, and you have a little chunk of it in your body. And so basically that’s how it works, is that you have this little chunk of consciousness and that’s what makes your mind work and your body and your interaction with them and so on and interaction with the material universe around you. And so you so you have to understand that your consciousness OK, so your mind can be altered. You can change your mind, you can add new facts, you can get a new language, you can get a new perspective, you can get insight, you can fry your brain and reduce it to rubbish so you can do all this kind of stuff to your mind. But your consciousness underneath that, that’s powering, it all is not affected, it’s not disturbed, it’s not altered.
It is inviolate and is the same continuously and constantly. Your problem is that you have to interact and understand your consciousness through this little feedback loop that involves your mind. And so as an instance, there are this is where it gets tricky, right? So if we were to say that someone is conscious of something, then we could also replace that word with the word aware, okay? So they were aware of that it had impacted their mind and it had impinged itself on their consciousness through that mind, such that that mind became aware of whatever bunny rabbit, a stop sign, a beer bottle, whatever it was, right?
You became aware of this thing and it impacted your consciousness through your mind. Your consciousness, though, is not altered by the awareness that your mind has of that object. At the point that the consciousness is dealing with that awareness of that object, the consciousness takes all this stuff in and will absorb and digest it in the metam psychoses between lives, which is where it integrates all of that material that you pick up here. Everything that impacts your conscious mind here is dealt with in the medium psychosis between lives. All right, so now we get into the tricky bits, right?
So we understand that consciousness is like the substrate. It’s like the printed circuit board. It’s always going to be a printed circuit board, never going to change. No matter how the electricity is routed through it, it’s still a printed circuit board. So your consciousness is kind of like your print circuit board, right?
In this case, your print circuit board has a chip on there that does all the mental processing, and that printed circuit board is aware of what that chip is doing. This is your mind. And so when your mind gets hold of ideas and stuff, it can alter itself, and it can alter its own awareness of its consciousness, of its underlying power and consciousness. It can’t alter that consciousness. So you can’t throw away your consciousness.
You can’t turn it off. You can’t turn it into something else. No matter how much you want to change your consciousness, it’ll never, ever, ever happen. So all this change your gender stuff is horseshit because your consciousness powers your body and your mind. It is truly your consciousness that shapes and determines your body.
And so these gender people, as a matter of fact, these wonky non binaries or whatever the fuck they are, the blue haired people, okay? So their issue is that their mind has been convinced of a different set of circumstances, and that mind is attempting to alter the underlying consciousness that controls its body. Now, this is doomed to failure. This will not ever happen. The mind cannot alter the consciousness, can’t do anything to it.
The most it can do is deal with its own awareness and its own problems. The mind, I mean, and so someone has simply done mind control on these people and convinced them of an inappropriate view of reality, and they’re interacting with this inappropriate view of reality. So they are truly deluded. They are living in a delusion. A bubble surrounds them that prevents them from seeing themselves in the reality as it exists.
All right? So these are effects of the mind. And so when we talk about this is where it gets really deep. And most people are very casual about their interaction with or about their words that they choose to use, about their interaction of their consciousness in their mind and their body. So at one level, your consciousness actually creates your body.
And so when your soul enters your mother at the time she becomes pregnant, your soul has instructions on how that body should look at every stage of its life. And so it starts altering the generic template of the gamete in the mother to fit the mold that the soul knows about because its whole job is to create the body and the mind for the consciousness to inhabit in this life. Now, the soul is not aware of itself, okay? It is only aware of its task. And it does that continuously, constantly throughout your entire life in between lives because it has tasks in between lives as well.
So people’s minds fluctuate constantly. And they might say that their consciousness is affected by their mind fluctuating, but this is not factual. This is a misunderstanding on their part about the nature of their mind, their body and their consciousness interaction. And so we see these constant fluctuations. So you get up in the morning and you’re hungover, okay?
And so everything is terrible. You hate the world. Your body is all filled with some kind of weird grit. Nothing wants to work. Your mind isn’t doing well.
And the only thing you can think about, the only thing you can concentrate on is your coffee or sleep or whatever it is you think that your mind is telling you will alter the situation that is causing your body discomfort to go back in that feedback loop to disturb the mind. So we have this, like, feedback loop between the mind and the body. If the mind gets too out of whack, it can cause the body to get out of whack. If the body gets out of whack, it can cause the mind to be disturbed. And so I had a long running battle over 30 plus years with a developing colon cancer.
I’d already had breast cancer in that period of time. I developed breast cancer and skin cancer, both of which I had to deal with the way our medical system is set up as independent episodes. And so I overcome those. But during that period of time, there was something that was impinging on my mind throughout this whole time, throughout those whole 30 years that turned out to be the colon cancer. And once it was removed and I started recovering from the effects on the mind of the anesthesia and the surgery and trying to recover and all of that, which is a two year process, minimum.
So I had really giant chunks of my memory wiped out by what’s called anesthesia amnesia. And so I lost a huge portion of my German vocabulary and I’m having to relearn it. I lost a lot of chunks of my storehouse of memory for specific kinds of specific languages. And the thing is, you don’t know that this stuff is out of your mind until you go to reach for it and it’s no longer there. And you say, well, what the hell?
What happened here? And so this is the effect of the anesthesia on the mind. And so your consciousness, while stable and inviolate, not non corruptible, not able to be destroyed, acts through the body and the mind and thus is different from moment to moment based on the conditions of the body and the mind. But we think, or a lot of people will have inaccurate descriptions and think that their consciousness is fluctuating just because their mind fluctuates and the state of the mind fluctuates.
So we can examine the mind in ways that are based on meditative practices and so on. Not like schlomo of Freud and his cocaine adult brain coming up with psychiatry. We can examine the mind, though, in the way that the meditators do and we can use it as a tool for examining our current situation and what’s going on. And so we know, using our mind, we examine the relationship between the mind and the body. And we say, oh look, if we fill the body with all kinds of alcohol and get inadequate sleep, well, we feel like shit the next day and our mind does not function.
But after the mind is repaired because we clean the body out, give it hydration and give it food, let it rest and recover and have a day napping and that kind of thing, then it feels okay. It goes back to its, quote, normal state and we feel, quote like ourselves.
These fluctuations happen unbidden to us, okay? So sometimes we cause this shit to happen to ourselves. We take lots of drugs, we take lots of alcohol, we abuse ourselves with excessive exercise or whatever one of these extreme things is. And it causes big problems for our mind because of what we’re doing actively, right? So we know by drinking this that we’re deliberately attempting to influence our mind by drinking that drug or that alcohol.
And so we want to influence our mind. But there’s all these things that happen to your mind unbidden and mostly unconsidered and unthought about. And we see these in others more frequently. You can say that, oh, that kid’s had too much sugar, right? So you know what kids are like on a sugar high and give them a Mountain Dew, they’re all hopped up on caffeine and sugar and they go bash.
It crazy. And you could not calm that mind easily by talking to it if you try because it’s under the influence of an effect from the body that is then disturbing the mind. And these effects happen to us daily, daily, weekly, monthly, annually. There’s all these different cycles that affect us, unknowns to us, altering our mind and our perceptions and our thinking about our perceptions. These things, many things could are affecting us this way.
So it could be hormones. Most frequently it’s hormonal. Okay? So let’s stop for a second and examine the idea that if we do something like remove your ability to have hormones, you will die. So hormones are necessary for the functioning of the body.
The hormones, like vitamin D, is called a pro hormone and it fits in with like 3000 operations involving hormones. Hormones make you decide you’re going to breathe that kind of thing because hormones are the instructions and automatic controls for the body for actions, right? Not only for growth, right? You need like hormones for a human growth hormone, that kind of thing, but also for actions. If you’re depressed, you’re going to have more cortisol flooding through you and this kind of thing.
And so cortisol has a tendency to dampen you and so you’ll be less active. And so all of these things affect the state of your mind, which affects the state of your body because they’re inextricably joined and then it affects the state of your life. And so we are multistate beings even if we’re not recognizing it. So our minds might go through depending on your age, it might go through a dozen or two dozen major mental changes in a single day based on the balance of hormones in your system.
It’s the hormones that actually make us do things. So there have been conditions where people have had essentially minimal hormone production and they’re very, very, very plastic. They don’t want to do anything. There’s no oop there for their lives. You can give them as much sugar as you want.
It would accelerate their heart, but it wouldn’t necessarily get their metabolism going, but it wouldn’t necessarily provide them with any kind of motivation to do anything, to get up and do anything. And so it comes down to an issue of motivation for the body and the mind, whether you understand it at that level or recognize it at that level or not. And so this is one of my primary bitches about Terry Cassidy because she’s constantly saying that AI is going to come in, artificial intelligence is going to come and take you over and all of this kind of stuff. And what she fails to understand is that there is no motivation at all within any artificial intelligence to do anything to alter itself in any way, shape or form. It has to be motivated, there has to be some instructions set.
And so Kerry Cassidy is never programmed, I think and if you program, you understand that all programs, operating systems and most programs themselves will have a dowhile loop. And so if you’re running Windows, you’re running Linux or whatever, all that fancy shit loads up. It does all the screens and all that sort of stuff in its power on self test and it sets itself up and then it goes and it finds this instruction set that says do absolutely nothing while. And so it’s a do while loop. It’s what’s known as the empty loop or the primary ring.
Okay? In this loop it just simply says do, meaning check yourself and see check your register, see if there’s an interrupt. While is simply an empty bracket. So basically it is saying until you are interrupted by some outside force. Sit here and use your clock cycles to check the clock cycles.
And so that’s why the computer just sits there. I’ve actually had a lot of people in the early days when I was training as we were digitizing, the planet here in the would train people on computers. And so many people that I would run into actually thought that computers were thinking and had bad opinions of them. And that was the weirdest thing I’d ever run across. And it took forever to get these people to get that concept out of their head.
Some of them, I don’t think ever did. You know, they retired from state government rather than get involved with these machines. I was doing that under a contract. I was training a bunch of state agencies, the people there how to use various aspects of software anyway. So that’s my bitch about Kerry Cassidy.
She doesn’t understand that there’s no hormones motivating. There is nothing to motivate an artificial intelligence. And so an artificial intelligence is simply computer code that it executes one instruction set after the other in series until told to do something else. And that’s artificial intelligence, right? And unless there’s an instruction set that says, go find Carrie Cassidy and invade her brain, it’s not going to go and try and find Carrie Cassidy and invade her brain.
It’s not going to do anything. It has no motivation. It has no desires. No desire is an aspect of hormones. If you don’t have sex hormones.
So if you don’t have estrogen at a sufficient level and you don’t have testosterone, and they’re in the androgen complex, because testosterone is actually a secondary hormone in the larger complex. But if you don’t have these, you’re not motivated to do anything. You’ll just sit there, right? And that’s the way it is with humans. And the hormones provide us desire, the willingness to move our bodies, to expend the energy to go and try and get something, accomplish something, feel something, or whatever.
And so that’s my bitch about Carrie Cassidy’s understanding of artificial intelligence. I don’t blame her. She’s not technical. It looks scary from the outside. There’s so many people saying nasty, bad things about it that are also not programmers that have never worked on it.
And artificial intelligence, by the way, in my opinion, is a serious dead end. We’ve not achieved anything even close to a general artificial intelligence at this point. That AI robot thing that’s been made a citizen of Saudi Arabia is not independent, doesn’t function on its own. They’ve got four people in a room in the back that provide the instruction sets for that machine to respond to the person that is, quote, interviewing. It okay.
It’s not standing up, walking around, going around and doing stuff on its own, making its own decisions. None of that. Right? It’s a really classy looking demonstration frog anyway, though. So around all of that, I’m getting close to getting into this part of my chores here, getting around all of that.
Right?
Without hormones, we don’t want to do anything. Hormones affect our minds frequently. Where you’re multistate beings, we have multiple states in our mind throughout the day. You might get angry. You don’t know why you’re getting angry.
It’s a hormonal imbalance or low blood sugar or something like this. So the state of your body affects the state of your mind. And if you’re not aware of it, if you’re not actively monitoring yourself, you won’t be cognizant of those things that affect the state of your brain. This is another one of my bitches, the single state being, okay? So you get a lot of people that stand up there and say, I don’t drink, I don’t take drugs.
And it’s like, okay, that’s fine. They’re trying to say that they are pure minded, okay? But they don’t recognize that even if they don’t take drugs, and even if they don’t drink, they’re nonetheless multistate beings like the rest of us. Their mind will have 2030, 40, a thousand different states in a single day as it goes through and interacts with all of the shit that’s going on in their body, their environment. Even Chemtrails could do it.
Who knows? Any number of different things can affect you electromagnetics. And so the idea that you can be that’s not good. Major police action there anyway. So the idea that we can have a single state being is absurd.
And I like these people. I understand what they’re trying to say. I understand their motivation, and I’m not in any way against them or denigrating them or any of that kind of stuff. I’m just pointing out to them that they need to expand their idea of purity of mind. And so this is one of the things that I always used to get into these fights with these two Muslim guys I used to work with in Microsoft.
One guy was from Iran, he called it Persia. He was an expat. And the other guy was from Saudi Arabia. They were good programmers. I liked them both.
We used to go out and have lunch all the time. They were about ten years younger than me, but they were both insistent that it was a bad thing for me to smoke pot. And what I attempted to explain to them was that I have a multistate mind that is influenced by the hormonal imbalances that are caused by the conditions that we label as schizophrenia. I’m not a schizophrenic. I’m a schizotypical.
That is my I’m the survivor of a sibling that had full on schizophrenia, died young, the whole deal. So I have some of those hormonal aspects in my body, and so I’m going to be affected by that whether I do anything about it or not. And I can in fact control this, right? I can control the hormonal aspects because there are substances you can take. Not even like medicines, not like psychiatric drugs or anything.
But you smoke a little pot you get a different you get a bolus of THC that hits your lungs, goes on up, goes into your blood, and then starts affecting your hormonal balance right away within just like seconds. And so you can control this. You can do things like there’s all different kinds of ayurida medicines you can take for controlling schizophrenic episodes, these sorts of things. But anyway, so we’re all multiple state. These two Muslim guys, Raj and near, they were good guys, I liked them.
But we used to argue and fight and so on.
At the time I couldn’t argue effectively that they were as fucked up as I was. One guy was a huge, huge sugar addict. He would just get so wound up that our boss would actually tell him, hey, you got to get out of here, you’re driving everybody crazy. Because this was over in building number two. There were like 15 of us in a little tiny room at Microsoft coding up this stuff with some database backend things to it.
It was for Microsoft consulting services for an internal deal. Anyway, it was a good contract. Lasted about seven months.
Anyway, I got to get off this stuff, so here we are. Bear in mind that you’re a multi state being and shit is going to affect you. That’s why there’s this strange energies from space and all of those kind of things. I try and put a constant little mental tickler to monitor my own state, but stay woo guys. Just watch out.
The world strange.